it’s in the dark, where I fell apart, feeling everything and more
the glimmer lasts from the light that’s cast, through the crack in the bedroom door
tell me it’s fine, to say it now
i’ll be alright, if you say it’s so
there’s something at night, blowing in the wind
tell me it’s fine, tell me anything
the streets are all covered in rain
so when i’m driving, i can’t see anything
except the plans that i thought we had, which ended up being nothing
could it be there’s a king and queen in this kingdom of capital
where the goal is to accumulate and everyone is miserable
tell me it’s fine, to say it now
tell me a white lie and i’ll let it slide
there’s something at night, blowing in the wind
tell me it’s fine, tell me anything
tell me i’m right here
lingering
liam is a friend but we don’t talk anymore
the cold shoulder present through the closing of doors
distance went and happened, i just don’t know how
at the time it felt sudden but that was years ago now
these days are moving so slowly
while years are moving so swiftly
it’s the things you forget, like an old pop song
fading from memory, once something, now it’s gone
lucy is a soldier in an emotion field
crying at the funeral, it’s all too real
after there’s a gathering of family and friends
where they’re all just eating sandwiches and making plans
these days are moving so slowly
while years are moving so swiftly
this place is a circus with a big old brass band
a true celebration of a how a good thing will end
with the head going in circles and a stomach in knots
fading from memory, once something, now it’s gone
i remember your old house and your dog
i remember the hard wood he struggled to move across
his legs don’t work like they once did
taken by time and the life he lived
when the morning came you couldn’t talk anymore
you had droopy eyes that were melted to the floor
an overwhelming and emotional affair
for a moment he’s here and then there’s nothing there
i remember a pleasant christmas eve
i remember icicles and a cold bite from winters teeth
i remember a phone call and ICUs
i know loss and i know what it can do
it’s a fragile thing that i cherish everyday
i know eventually i’ll drift off into space
and i’ll be there when you’re looking up at stars
off the shoulder of orion, a blinking heart
it’s not just what you do or the way you move
that draws me straight across a crowded room
you keep me here and you have for years
now things are looking up for you and me
i remember the people in my life
i remember mistakes a made and the trouble i caused
i remember these moments like yesterday
yesterday is lost, will tomorrow be the same?
i dreamt i was alone again
i dreamt i had a chance but i blew it
i dreamt you were in love with her and not me
i dreamt i had a cure for all of these petty things
it’s a cruel thing, how we treat one another
it’s a cruel thing, how i solve this in my dreams
i’m collapsing all the way, into my weakened centre
then dissolving into dust and then i’m blowing in the wind, in the wind
i dreamt i was a politician
placating, overstating simple things
i’ll adorn you with praise in brilliant conversation
and in the end i won’t accomplish anything
it’s a cruel thing, how we consume every resource
and it amazes me to see the lack of bounds for human greed
so we’re collapsing all the way, into our weakened centre
then dissolving into dust and then we’re blowing into space, into space
when she sings, i hear everything
every subtle imperfection, i adore without correction, when she sings
when she moves, i move too
and i’ll follow without a problem, if there’s problems then we’ll solve them
if i told you would you believe that all the world could come undone
like a big ball of yarn, unraveling around the sun
forever after i’ll be fine, when she sings
i hear that old mocking bird, how it mocks every word
i don’t want to write a love song, i just want to write a song for you
cause i know when she smiles, it’s just for a while
it’s a moment, it’s a sign, that the cruelest thing is time
if i told you would you believe that all the world could come undone
like a big ball of yarn, unraveling around the sun
it’s when i ponder on how things could end
it’s when i feel like i’ve got nothing left
forever after i’ll be fine, when she sings
rogue wave, pine wood, small life, left out
she’s weighed down by a heart full of gold, so it all makes sense
linger, steel town, blue lips, red wine
she’s weighed down by a heart full of gold, so it all makes sense
lone-year, head rush, pale skin, let down
she’s weighed down by a heart full of gold, so it all makes sense
there’s a telephone here waiting
it hasn’t rung for years, it’s an antique fading
if it did i’m sure i’d hear from you
you’d tell me how things are out there changing
it’s so celestial in it’s function
it’s got a rotary dial that spins for something
like how the planets move, it seems to me
there’s a crucial piece that i might be missing
i knew it, i knew it
you’ve come this far, you should see yourself through it
i knew it, i knew it
what a wonderful life it would be with me
i see a tender-loving moment
between a father/daughter, i’ll never know it
as i’m walking past the traffic signs
and wading my way through the caffeine lovers
i’ve got a twisted sense of humor
it’s a tangled mess, it’s a prominent feature
it’s a spiral cord of plastic debris
that keeps me tethered to my receiver
i knew it, i knew it
you’ve come this far, you should see yourself through it
i knew it, i knew it
what a wonderful life it would be
i knew it, i knew it
i’ve finally found the piece that i’m missing
i knew it, i knew it
what a wonderful life it would be with me
it’s a blue sky in june
the clouds are out, too
and i’ve taken this all in stride
cause i’m just that grey sky in fall
i’m the days you forgot all along
so take this from me, see i’ve got this disease
so please don’t be sad if i go
if i go
i’m looking up at stars
past jupiter and saturn and mars
and i wonder if we’re not alone
or am i that daydreaming kid
the one you forgot to forget
so take this from me, i’ll fight this disease
but please don’t be mad if i can’t
some stars that die form a blackhole
the gravity’s too much, i know
with hair askew from the air the blew from the crack in the window, it’s loud
i’m reading signs just to past the time for places i know nothing about
i had a dream that we could be the millennial bonnie and clyde
two souls out on the road, far from home, we could hide
i’m peering through the pines and chasing powerlines
with a new lifestyle i could run for miles, on this one big trip around the sun
through the glare i know we’re almost there as the clouds part way overhead
it’s a dream, it’s a fantasy-scheme that still replays in my head
i had a dream that we could be happy, you and I
but in the end it’s uncertain again but good things happen sometimes
i feel the lunatic in this lunar looney bin
to feel a million things a trillion ways on this one bad trip
when i’m stressed out and tired and sick of my life, darling you make me feel alright
are they awake? you will
the end is here
i’ve been running in circles for years
just looking for a storybook ending
one rid of awful things
a fearful climb to the stars and moon
i close my eyes, the end is soon
so say goodbye to this awful year
if i close my eyes will it disappear?
the hardest part is staring into the ether wondering if my life could end before it starts
and no-one cares, and i probably don’t, either way i’m ready now to find the ending to, i just don’t want to
to feel, that this life’s gone and lost its appeal
i’m just looking at this line between you and me
for it’s faded and hard to see
a fearful climb to the stars and moon
i close my eyes, the end is soon
so say goodbye to this awful year
if i close my eyes will i disappear?
the hardest part is staring into the ether wondering if my life could end before it starts
and no-one cares, and i probably don’t, either way i’m ready now to find the ending to, i don’t want to
to feel, that this life’s gone and lost its appeal
i feel aimless in this space without gravity
and the silence is deafening